It almost looks like the physical manifestation of the psychological gauntlet of being stabbed in the back who otherwise had everything to gain from chancing into my token/given existence.
Blame TV for your behavior?
Blame money?
Blame the 0nes that didn't do any such thing to me and have instead distantly done the opposite in silent support and solidarity?
Even in the face of the wake of insane completely blind, myopic, stupid, sick, twisted and foolhardy smear campaigns and the intentional harm done with every turn of the corner when my talent was *shared*/offered?
And the best you (just *some* on you/them/us) can offer me for turning my life into a 1-of-a-Kind "Ultimate" risk-taking sacrifice/quest to help and protect others with a model based on reality and truth and no-blindsides aimed at using itself/me/this to "fix" the planet as best I can based on what I see and can do compared to most with only the totally already beyond-f7cked-over-and-sabotaged-by-OTHERS (far beyond my token mountain/pile of ballast/sandbags - duh - mine don't hurt - they only protect) pre-existing mismash of history and 3+ decades of being told an assortment of lies and varying untrustworthy/blind opinions to work with as "reference" mud-like characters f7cking up my "Ferrari-grade" Processor(s)?
The best you can offer my Dreems and life of planning on earning and building my "Dreem World" one way or another based on a long-term goal of raising my little programmable "Dreem Kids" with my "Dreem Yv(s)" based on setting a personal standard and behavioral role model that can endure the depths of hell and then come back to sort out the night/day differences in the way *some* people use words concepts, the best you can offer my way-too-much-already-paid one-and-only-known-shot-at-life-on-this-planet-with-epically-aimed-cannons-from-day-0ne is...
The best you can offer is this mind-twistingly beyond my comprehension complete lack of regard for my well being, even going so far as to create/suggest/use all this crazy all-wasteful-power psyops sh7t to try and push/force/hurt/torture me into the company of the very people who failed the token goodwill/character test and chance to any correct sign of caring for me and being there when it was needed as I have continued to sit here withdrawing fire?
I don't know what's a joke and what's not. But the condition of the design of the world is pretty terrifying, and YOU CAN USE ANY WORDS YOU WANT to try and explain/cover/hide whatever missing elements of the human Soul seem to be missing in some, the the dynamics and impacts of their twisted and apathetic _____-based actions are nothing to be
How cruel to even suggest so much that has been suggested in the context and ways in which it has?
I'm sidetracked and I've got "real world" sh7t to do at the moment, but oh boy do I have specifically-thought-out-and-strongly-worded essays about what is possible with me in my lifetime and what is not and how any guilty/responsible for the direct/indirect attempts to harm or lead me in the wrong direction or take advantage of me in ways unthinkable instead of just helping me as the DaVinci-like world designer and SweerHeart that I am...
I have a list of what's funny and what's not.
And I have a list of who is funny and in which context and who is not.
And I can explain the full-circle "strikes" based on the specific cross-references and nightmares that sometimes clog my mind.
The same way I can otherwise live in my Dreem World of Vision.
#destroyersandthosewithvaluelesssexual-in-regard-to-lovebehavioralprogrammingarethebiggestturnoffsinexistence
#valuedifferently
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