As I'm sitting here once again reading my notes and focusing on the task at hand of choosing any one of or several/"multiply-overlaid" directions I could go job/"Career"/$-source/Role(z) -wise, the haunting reflections of the way in which the Universe seems to exist/exists fade out of my "main processor focus loop" enough to make/allow me to look at things from a different angle, and accordingly take a moment (from the beeeyond "hurry-up/wait" stereotypical behavior pattern right? [facepawlm]) to actually specifically just explain, address, and elaborate on the truth and nature behind all my 'WTF-but-completely-true' responses to token gestures that, from a distance, I guess could be considered the ultimate acts of Goodwill/Kindness/"Relative-Inclusion-Minded"-and-sincerely-not-faux/duplicitous-"Did Caspurrr put you up to this sh7t too?"-type-thinking...for a change...
So...
I reckon I'll also take a second to show I actually care about everything I've been doing/saying all along and anyone it may be affecting in whatever multiple uncharted dimensions of reality may exist. Apparently between Sunday School, TV, what's not even allowed on "normal" TV (:/), some such dimensions actually may, and since it's a 3D reality and 7+D Future Reality, the least I can do is expend the effort to set things right...especially considering the "Emotional Tugging" and possible impact of this non-existent "project" on others I am vaguely aware of while still floating about space making a proverbial spectacle of myself as usual.
*splash* (facepalm)
A.) Don't worry. When I explain all the specific elements and dynamics and multiple design perspectives and relative full-circle everything you will understand and be more than at peace. But since it occurs to me typing makes my mind come across in an even-more-retarded fashion when it has an entire dizzying list of references to unload as it just so happens to does in regard to all the 'key-problem reference associations' of the last 24 hours of modern history...
B.) I'll just add "Untangle" to my Quadrant 1 list and find a way to address the myriad of specific elements as they come to mind in a different/Better/improved? format.
C.) There will be a lot more points than just A.), B.) and C.) here on the list, but since they are now irrelevant as this is but the torrent of reference material/example that my 0verpowered/Supercharged and highly-overanalyzed-incorrectly Mind has seemingly running through it in trying to address the lastest "Truman Dream/Nightmare Curveball" anyway, might as well address it head on and in the future perhaps bill/consider it as therapy.
...even though at this point the concept of money is so o_0_o that even considering it in any/all equations is just awkward...but I digress.
Beyond that, once again I Apologize for any misinterpretations/misreads/misunderstandings Words, Actions, Designs, Intent, and even perhaps a beyond-complicated-to-explain background context created/caused by others that I am in no way in control of yet obviously dramatically, occasionally comprehensively, and less-than-ideally affected by at times.
(insert funny lolcat image of choice)
I was/am attempting to collect a 'Dream Cast' of various Elements/People as I randomly adventure through life, because that's just what I do, "collect Hooman Gems" as "Good Examples" to show-off/associate with the "Fairytale" if you will. In the context that this aspect was stumbled into, it was about installing an Imaginary Superlative Example placeholder within the TV/movie/fashion parallel Universe aspect of it while I'm still literally on the ground trying to make sense of how to address this society while keeping "my peers in charge of running this specific style of governing control hierarchy" WELL-AWARE of the cracks and 'patchwork' all/nothing wipeouts their designs/actions/tolerances cause for token paper numbers that have no true relevance to the world and reality as I believe "God" or Evolution or LOGIC or whatever may have wanted it to exist had the technology that was around 2000 years ago that America (and much of the world and HISTORY-leading-to-now) is based on existed then.
One day for Christmas when I'm rich I'll have someone go back and put this into proper-length sentences so the average person can actually read it, but for now I'm just getting the thoughts out of my head - so please bare with me and this atrocious style of writing.
Now, where was I? Oh yes...
At out respect for the institution and committed dynamics of marriage as it applies to the average person and the historical and future capacity in which I define(d) it, sex was never considered, included, associated, or remotely part of the reason behind casting (Guess! Who are we kidding wRight? EXACTLY!!! WTF Aliens!!!??? [facepawlm]) as an "Ambassador" of "the Cause" while I'm busy sitting in this 'Future-Ace-Raining' scenario in sync with the "oops-did-we-do-that...again" financial collapse in tandem with other 'Global Game-changing Events in Recent History'...because that's WHAT this is about...not sex...but parts of the audience and peanut gallery seems to be obsessed with sex and money, so I guess that is what they assumed?
Hell if I know...
But I was merely attempting-to/using the Superficial-but-REAL power of well-positioned-and-coordinated aesthetic Beauty and first-impression Intelligence to stand-in on my behalf until I get there "Sumdai". Seems like a Best-Application-Scenario of what purely coincidentally(?) happened to show up on my radar in the real-3D-set world and on teh interwebs simultaneously...and when I have no direct control of some elements and yet I have God-level control/influence of others...while I'm busy "experiencing the nightmare rollercoaster these dicksheads/shadybz created/caused and FISHING/HUNTING for examples of "Rescuer-like Goodwill" to make the True-Story-as-I-Set-It-Up-and-Want-It-To-Be-Because-That-Is-The-Way-It-Should-Be-To-Be-Used-As-A-*Better/More-Correct*-Ultimate-*cough*cough*-Future (PRESENT!!!)-Example-For-OTHERS-That-Aren't-As-^***^-As-Me..."coordinating" the multiple various elements within my Mind to create solid and safe yet technically imaginary "Bridge Crew" and Parallel Meme Set seemed like and was an extremely intelligent thing to do.
Now then, as far as the real world completely different reality and Universe in which others whose token names or likenesses might have been 'Incorporated' into my 'Meme' from a distance actually exist, and any of their direct friends, family, and associates that may have accordingly become incidentally involved... Whoopsy! (again) Sorry! My bad. I think you kids might have been reading some things incorrectly and in out-of-bounds-in-my-mind ways based on worldviews and lifestyles I did not remotely consider when defining the way in which I see my Employees/Friends/Costars. It's nothing personal. You're beautiful and all. It's just that was/is not the apparently-far-more-Professional-and-Intimately-Respectful way in which I see things by considerate default as a Hooman being. Which is guess it why it caught me so off guard.
But...
While refocusing on my task list of what I'm supposed to be doing to pull off this incredible/impossible but-yet-not-really-that-hard-or-impossible-at-all feat of retransforming myself into an ^!+^ Specimen once again while not stooping/resorting to the tactics/styles/worldviews of certain gangster rappers who somehow made poverty the rationalization/excuse for evil behavior and disrespect of women in the quest for money and fame blah, blah, blah Errr... Ummm...
Well, point being, that 'Golf' angle of things was never something I considered nor was I seeking/expecting in remotely incorporating NY into the story as one of the 'Barbie Brand Badges', so forgive my initial surprise/shock/reaction/response. Truth be told I have no point of reference except for a random handful of bad/horrific/nightmarish examples from that brief misadventure into the club world. Mind you, I never had any actual role or part in the lifestyles or whatever these other people supposedly engaged in and talked about, but I guess oh-so-ironically in that same guilt-by-misassociation boat, in the same way people will completely incorrectly and mistakenly judge me do to the fact that I even passed-through some "off the radar" underground elements of our society that most never know exist, some understandably-but-erroneously associate me with those characters I have absolutely nothing in common with except for the fact that they were at/in that set at the same time as me. The Elements? Yes. (w00t!/Fun,Fun,Fun) The people? No. I didn't go hide on my house on the hill to get away from the reminders of what-the-f7ck-was-I-doing-following-"Love"-into-the-club-scene-in-the-first-place for nothing.
But such is life. I digress.
Anywho, most importantly, the spark/genesis of this explanation-I-haven't-even-begun-to-start-yet, regardless of whatever else, is/was realization of the fact that Superlative/Top-tier Strangers/Peers/Friends would be willing to make that real-world PR gesture/accidental-overlove-offer all things considered. It occurred to me that is enough of a qualifying token stunt (+the reality-synced tricycle and list of other stuff) to more than count as an act of generosity and Goodwill in relative terms...and since *that* is what this is about seeking...then it occurs to me I should simply be thankful, grateful, and appreciative of the attention, concern, and value-acknowledging attention offered even if I totally was not expecting the Will Smith model to be so omni-present. But whatever. Some things are just intentionally conditioned to be much higher priorities on my list than others at this way-too-far-well-into-the-vacuum-stage, and so I guess I just see things much differently than most and even admittedly differently from myself in such a scenario, but the token "Rescuer/Compassionate Spirit" is what I was/am 'seeking', and just like in the unique-exception case of the illustrious Jaguar, such "Noble" Character Traits offset/override/make-up-for other "less-than-ideal-set-related-scenarios"/elements...especially in light of the uniquely extraordinary time and circumstance surrounding this point in my Life's story.
Sooo...
The indirect mention/reflection(s), Your Time, Attention, and Ultimate Gesture are now more accurately Realized and Appreciated in that Context. :)
...even though I, this blog, this story, and any/all audience reading it don't exist...
Yet.
TBC
Much Love.
^
x0x0x
:)
- A! -
P.S. Oh, and the obvious assumption that also runs along with my non-existent existence and "project's" parallel impact on never-before-met-in-person stranger/friends' lives that I randomly incorporate into the story is, in exchange for even the movie role impact/association/attention/whatever, presumably inclusion is extremely financially valuable as well and any/all negative/unseen/unknown/unrealized harm/injury/costs will not only acknowledged and repaid, but also Rewarded for the all-so-important correct/Right/Good/Better/CARING behavior demonstrated during any/all of these more turbulent and trying times. If anything, do to the fact that the attention is being directed NOW and WAS when I needed it most, it is even exponentially more valuable. Literally. To me at least. I realize to those who are already extremely well-off the monetary aspect is relatively/completely irrelevant, so I'll just have to see what I find in my Myriad/sack of creative options for how else to reward and acknowledge any displayed heart-in-the-Right-place investment/sacrifice/risk/Behavior as any/all opportunities arise.
Hmmm...
Close enough.
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