How did "the authorities" bring all these clowns and monsters...

...into my life story and dream project instead of speaking direct to/with me first?

Do they have any idea how badly they f7cked up in that regard?

Why did they do that?

Why has it been 4 years of this nightmare/Dream?

...when all the nightmare parts are not of my design or creation, but are the result of the impact (ironically) some of those others had on me?

You can steal the fame and you can steal the money and you can steal the attention, but you can't steal the credit or the character that is the one and only driving force behind it, which is what I have to wake up to everyday, in addition to seeing the reflections of it taken to the places and extents it's been as it sit here all-too-often completely voiceless, helpless, and overwhelmed in regard to trying to literally save the Future all by my lonesome.

Wow.

What a waste.  Still running at 2% with crates full of notebooks that are like laughter batteries.

Remember how when the class got tuned in late 2006 when I had started the nonsense fighting the fire that had burned my life with the fire of that sarcastic pseudorapper character god^666?

Yeah, well, when I said I had lifelong plans to grow-up overnight after turning 30, I simply meant the age and focus of my time and intellect on politics and the news instead of the irrelevant junk food content art existence.  Never knew trains and trainyards were part of that equation on the hiearchy levels it was.  Never would even think of sex in the way apparently lots of frat dudes have since they got their hands on that "porn wife" DNA in college.

Wow.  And trying to type this myriad of thoughts and ideas to the world through the keyboard on my cell phone when there are so many thoughts and ideas and examples I can't even begin to convey them?

Yeah, it hurts my programming.  But where does our programming come from?

The genesis story of my father?

That his father was quite the ladies man around town, and that he got in an argument with his wife about it, and she got shot and killed and then his father supposedly spent the rest of his life in jail as a result...

Despite all this happening long before I existed?

And I never even my father's parents because they were obviously dead before I was born?

Wow.